Ever wonder...

How different your day would have been if you chose to go left instead of going right. If you ignored that person that is now permanently etched in your life... If you paid attention and put more effort in that subject you enjoyed.... If you keep you first in everything you did... well if you were unable to then we are probably feeling regret.. As the year continues to fly by, and my goals seem to get further and further from my reach. With that comes a feeling of complete and utter disappointment with my self. Over the past 11 years I am unable to list 5 moments where I have been happy, satisfied with the choices I have made...
My "hope" is lost in the deep black sea.. my "faith" is dwindling like a dying star in the solar system... my "love" of anything is, well I dont what that is... and my "luck"... well let's just say I have to laugh at the idea that I might actually have any of that thing.
If this is what being defeated feels and looks like then I might as well say I'm on my way to getting my doctorate....

Just found this in my drafts.. smh @ my emotions. I wrote this in May..